Why Do You Do It? Writing at it’s finest.

As days and nights went on, as i struggled to face my emotions, as i took on new situations i didn’t know how to handle i found myself writing a lot. Like in a journal, something i could express my feelings to while keeping everything private. It has worked for me, for a long time and it even still does. But i find myself asking a lot of questions when i write. Who will answer them for me? That’s when i decided a blog could be a easier way to ask questions and receive advice, without having to face that feeling of being worried or nervous as some people are when you talk in person.

I try to post what i want to talk about as well as what i think people would be interested in reading. Because if you are just typing to type chances are people won’t read it. I’ve always loved writing, i’ve always loved typing away on my laptop but writing just for yourself isn’t always pleasing. Blogging has allowed me to be able to express myself and enjoy writing more than ever.

There are a lot of people who will never see the deepness in what someone writes, the emotion behind it. It’s not always easy for some people to understand how others express themselves. I love reading people blogs, especially the ones i can relate to. So if you are struggling to write, think of things people can relate to. Or dig deep to find that emotion and write about it. Some one will appreciate it! We all have different experiences and if we actually listen to one another it’s amazing to see the world from a different perspective.

It definitely is scary to jump into something new, i didn’t think i’d have any followers or any people even looking at my blogs, let alone reading them. And even though i only have a couple followers and i only get a few views it makes me so happy to know that people are interested in what i have to say. I hope if you are wanting to start a blog, you do it. I hope that you read this and it gives you the courage to start whatever it is you’ve been putting off. Life is to short to sit in fear of failure. Take that first step, i promise you won’t regret it!

Cold Feet? Or Low Self-esteem?

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I just started this blogging thing not to long ago, but I like everyone else blogging, I love to write. I have countless stories I have saved away, countless journals and books full of thoughts and stories. Opinions and conversations. I just, love to write.

I find I write a lot on my blog, but almost all of those stories end up in my drafts. Which is fine. Some of them might not be done, or were typed with 100% effort. So I wouldn’t post them anyway, I wouldn’t post anything I felt wasn’t 100% of my effort. I know I lack some grammatical details, and just the flow of a real writer but I still enjoy it and I like to think someone out there is enjoying it as well.

I write the most when something has just happened, or when a flush of emotions about something comes over me. I feel that is the best time to really express myself. But even then, a lot of those stories end up in my drafts.

I made this blog to help me, to be an outlet for myself. And yet I wonder if maybe I’m not comfortable enough on the page to post my true feelings for the world to see. Maybe that’s normal, but I wish that wasn’t the case.

Or maybe I love writing but I’m just not cut out for it. Everyone has their hobby maybe this just isn’t mine. Who knows.

I wish we lived in a less judgmental world. But wishing won’t do much, right.

Self-esteem is such a strong thing, confidence holds so much power. And it’s funny that even behind a screen I’m scared to always be completely vulnerable.